Bad Religion? Part II. Why I am not an Atheist.

First off, let me begin by stating what I believe or do not believe means as much to the universe as, well, let’s just say it means next to nothing…check that, if means completely nothing. Other than the interest of one having a different take on things, who really cares what I believe? What difference does it make? Your take may be right, I may be crazy (but it just might be a lunatic you’re looking for?) ultimately, I am just some dude with a skewed perception of reality just like all the rest of us. I am imagesnot a scientist, I am just some guy who has lived 50 years and has seen and experienced quite a bit, particularly in terms of dealing with people at a spiritual level. You can argue with me on this stuff if you want, though I will not argue back as these are just my personal beliefs and I am quite open to the idea they may be flat out wrong. I have never been about being “right” in regards to such issues. In addition, I attempt to write this as an honest blog and I mean absolutely no disrespect to anyone of any religion. I may not respect certain things you may believe, though I respect you and your right to believe them. My hope is that you all can sense the humility and honesty sandwiched in my thoughts. I have far more questions than answers….more on that later.

To begin, I am not an atheist. Not even close. Now if you are a believer of some sort, you may welcome this news as most of us really like it when others believe what we believe. Yet before the celebration of my non-atheism commences, please do not get your spiritual panties in a bunch when I tell you I am not an atheist though I also do NOT believe in God. Semantics? Paradoxical? Perhaps. Read on.

I earnestly believe that many atheists are atheists because of the strong connotation we have collectively hoisted upon the word “God.” I am not a fan of the word God. I am not a fan of the concept of God, either. As a society, we have applied many bullshit connotations (there goes my humility and respectful tone again, sorry) to the word God that most cannot understand the concept of God outside of the hang ups of our connotations. We have corporately and ecumenically butchered the concept of a force, creator, being, energy, (the list goes on) etc…with religious agenda; as a result, it scares the hell out of me to believe in God. (For the latest group speaking for God, check out the Westboro Baptist Church, there’s some real intellect for ya). So many groups have spoken out on behalf of God with so many crazy declarations that it leads me to believe either, a. God is crazy, b. God is mean and unfair or, c. God has been the victim of some very poor and insane spokespersons. Perhaps God needs a new publicist and PR firm.

TodaEpicurus winy, mark the date, I give the “force,” “creator,” “being,” “energy” (don’t like these? Choose whatever works for you) a new name as to not promote connotations…to be announced at the end of this blog series. For now, let’s go with force, creator, being, energy, or FCBE.

Why do I believe in a F.C.B.E.? For three general reasons.

The basic reason I am not an atheist is the same reason many give for being atheist -it intuitively makes the most sense and is the most rational…to me. How can we humans be self aware- knowing of our own imminent demise- question everything, while being cognizant of our life-death milieu while this self-awareness just happen to be the product of chance as the result of evolution? I cannot buy that. How did self-awareness evolve? Why is a blog with this subject matter created? Why do we discuss the nature of existence, purpose and philosophy? We are soulful creatures. In my economy it takes more faith to believe in chance than to believe in a sort of FCBE.

Secondly, it seems that as science evolves it is continually pointing to a type of FCBE. Wait, that is overstated. Rather, science has drastically evolved yet many questions remain unanswered as science cannot prove there is no FCBE. In other words, science has proven so much in the fields of biomedical engineering, chemistry, astronomy, etc…both in terms of what exists and what does not exist, why has it not nixed the myth of an FCBE? Science disproves things all the time -yet, science has not disproven an FCBE. One day, science may prove there is no FCBE, though until that day, I’m waiting. Perhaps it is impossible to prove something does not exist and the burden of proof should be placed on those claiming something does exist. Ok. I cannot provide proof, only internally consistent arguments based on my own subjective rationale and empirical observation. That’s what makes it interesting discussion.

Thirdly, it is very difficult for me to deny some sort of spiritual realm -hence a driving force behind it- when you consider so much happens in life that defies a physical explanation. Case in point, the person who experiences near death and sees the great white light (yes it could be sputtering brain waves and misfiring neurons, I know), or the motivation behind a Mother Theresa or even the explanation of DMT, a natural occurring molecule in our own bodies known as the “Spirit Molecule” that give us spiritual experiences (check out the documentary on Netflix).  To contend there is only the physical world does not provide sufficient insight into the above occurrences. I liken this idea to the concept of love. Why do DMT-The-Spirit-Molecule-M-D-Rick-EB2370002753142we love? Is there a biological, evolutionary need to love? Maybe, though I think mating, not love, makes more sense in terms of our necessary evolution. Breathing may make life possible, though love makes life worth living while spiritual experiences take our existence to an extraordinary new level.

My most profound spiritual experiences these days come to me via the Grand Canyon. I know full well what awaits me as I approach the South Rim in my vehicle as I have seen the canyon many times before. Yet when I see it again, I gasp. I shake. I feel so big yet so small. I feel like the Grand Canyon was placed on earth by FCBE to put us people in our place. The feeling I get cannot be described at a physical level…it is something more.

To summarize some final thoughts I contend that to believe in only the physical seems truly superficial and unrealistic yet it does make sense and is certainly a valid and palatable observation for many. I respect the position. For example, no one can sufficiently answer the question: If there is a God why is there be so much senseless suffering on earth? This question only makes sense if you believe in God, which is why I do not. The assumption is God has a plan with an even playing field and all things happen for a reason according to religious principles. This FCBE of which I speak is only that…a Force Creator Being Energy, with no other characteristics attributed. To make declarative statements or ascribe motivation to said FCBE, is the ultimate form of hubris and arrogance. If this FCBE is infinite and eternal, which many claim a God to be and really must be so if you believe in the concept, how in THE HELL can we even wrap our minds around these concepts? I cannot speak for anyone who is infinite and eternal, I can barely speak for me. I want to embrace the idea of mystery and the unknown. Holy books today are filled with mystery, yet so many have attempted to quantify and provide pat answers for ultimately mysterious and unknowable issues of life, the mystery of the holy book is robbed. The mystery of an FCBE is robbed. I believe this to be sad.

Our contemporary concept of God is basically built on post-printing press, patriarchal notions that angry-god-12support multi-billion dollar religious institutions. For said institutions to gain adherents and power they must evoke fear in people and provide all the said pat answers, thus speaking out for God and usually telling us he (yes he) is pissed about something. I did state earlier  that I do not necessarily think this is a bad thing for society as it may keep many in check, yet, still, I will personally take my FCBE thank you very much….more on that in the next and final blog.

I, for one, am more interested in questions, not answers. It seems to me that both the atheist and believer alike prefer to think they have it all figured out as both are dogmatic and narrow-minded in their own agendas. How boring. I want to keep asking, searching and learning…never knowing what tomorrow’s personal cognitions and insights will look or feel like.

Though what does it matter what I think? I’m just some guy with a thing for the Grand Canyon.

I hope I was respectful.

Coming up next: Bad Religion, Part III. Thy new name for FCBE and thy role of tradition in contemporary life.




    • John…if I may ask, what specifically did you find interesting or worthy of the “one of the best?”

      • You just put into words and explained something so clear that I have felt for a long while now, but couldn’t even fathom translating into clear sentences. Albeit you’re experiences are different than mine, but the foundation of this article still really rings true to me. Can’t wait for part 3!

  1. …interesting. FCBE interesting concept, can’t say as I totally disagree, looking forward 2 part 3.

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